"Imagine the fear and guilt as part of you. Truly experience it. Then take a step back and see the fear as a separate thing. You can touch it, but you can retract your fingers. You still remain as you, whole."
I had been experiencing these feelings at work. It all stemmed from the "slave mentality" - the one who does the most work feels the least guilt. And I had just rejected an extra assignment (for valid reasons). But feelings of guilt remained. And fear. What would "they" think of me? Do they see me as a non-team player? Never mind that I've worked hard on extra assignments in previous years. Never mind that I find it hard to say "no".
So BF was trying to be my voice of reason.
I said,"I find this exercise hard to do. The concept is too abstract."
BF said,"Try viewing fear as a pencil. You touch it, twirl it round your fingers. You grab it, it's part of you. But you can put it down."
Me: Still abstract. Surely it's easier to give it all to the Lord & say,"I can't, Lord, but You can?"
BF: Sure. Roll it on the Lord's back. There. It's gone.
And this worked for me.
Rolling it on the Lord's back
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